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I know you keep claiming that you don't care that I keep bringing her up, she left 30 years ago etc. but I know that isn't true. After the marriage collapsed you didn't even attempt to have another relationship. So it's obvious your failure with her took something out of you and fucked you up really bad. You were a terrible selfish oaf before but with her leaving you really spiraled into becoming bitter and demented. You definitely took her presence for granted.
The psychoanalyst in me imagines that all these failed clingy attempts to garner affection and relevance from the internet are an outgrowth of knowing you're dead to her. She moved on to a superior person who is more capable of being human than you are and it's all the same to her whether you exist or don't exist. She wakes up in a bed with another man and he's who she's thinking about at intervals during the day, not you. She has hobbies, a real job, pets, and most importantly a functional husband to think about so she's spared even the momentary sadness over the tragedy that is your current and future life unto death. Who knows how many embarrassing or hurtful events it took for her to call it quits.
Well who knows besides you, of course.
You tried to make it work with her and failed, then you went on the internet where everything is more amplified but meaningless and you failed there too. You failed to make the fanatical losers on kiwifarms accept you as one of them, you failed to gain infamy by harassing chris-chan, you failed to be a blogger, so here you are now guarding a pointless little virtual fiefdom where the most important thing you're known for is defending pathetic wasteoids and perverts who like you have failed out of every other area of life. She found a way to get away from you so now in your completely nutless and pathetic way you try to make anyone who dismisses you like me pay. She's out there being alive and here you are, like an obnoxious and sloppy ghost doing this all day long.
